I am haunted by the fear that my hair will fall out again. It's tough to admit that I think about it constantly. The fact is, it's not an entirely irrational fear. . . my hair still falls out in patches. When i'm stuck in traffic I find myself feeling for new places where hair has fallen out, or in the morning I check the mirror to make sure none of my bald patches have grown. It can consume me.
My fear doesn't change a single thing. My worry or anxiety of what may happen doesn't change the fact that God will see me through this trial when it comes - today or in the future. If I have to struggle through It again, I know that God will be no less God than He was when that first patch of hair fell out last August. He is still the Sovereign God over my circumstances. My heart has to be set and focused on His goodness and mercy rather than on my outward trial. God has been building up my faith and reminding me of His unending love. He has been pointing back to the fire that I walked through and been speaking life to me.
I pray that we would lead lives that are set and determined to glorify our Heavenly Father no matter the situation, no matter the hardship, no matter the sense of loss. I pray that God would point us back to those times that He carried us so that we remember His faithfulness is true. There is always hope to be enjoyed because our Jesus will not let us fall. There will never be a day when He won't be by your side.
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Daphne Jackson
5/22/2016 05:53:11 pm
Nina. I don't know if you remember me or not but I want to tell you how inspiring your story is and how true! We all have something to face in life and for sure our faith in God and his unfailing love, mercy and, grace is what gets us through. You are so beautiful inside and out. God Bless you sweetie! (Sandy Cash Ministries)
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Cheri Hardaway
5/23/2016 04:22:33 pm
Nina,
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