Life goes by too quickly. . . I think that is a pretty safe statement to make. When I look back on the last three months of my life, I think the phrase "time flies" is a gross understatement. I feel like, even now, I am still catching my breath from the whirlwind that has been my season of transition. Everything has changed. I found myself getting lost today, sloshing around in the unsteady waters of my own self doubt and frustration. It is easy to forget how far God has brought you whenever you are faced with ever present tidal waves of expectation. It seems I have always put unwarranted and unfair qualifiers on myself- I extend far more grace towards others than I do for myself. And, today I was drowning in it. But, we forget, don't we, of the power of our Almighty and Sovereign God.
My story - and the countless chapters and words therein - stack on top of each other like stones of an altar. It is here that i've come to confess my short comings and plead for God's merciful love to radiate from my life in spite of my broken self.
Then, God brought me back. . . to YOU. My friends, my family.
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“The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.” |
So, first off, you have to know that I am single and I have been that way for quite some time. It use to cripple me. . . that's actually quite an understatement. I use to not be able to see anything else but my painful awareness of my inability to snag a boyfriend. But, about 3 years ago, I determined that I couldn't keep waiting around hoping I would run into my future husband. Instead, I had to keep living, keep singing, and keep impacting lives as I went on this journey arm and arm with Jesus. Yet, even as I was moving forward with my life, I still ached with the reality that I wasn't in a relationship. It was what I desired more than most things- to love and be loved in return. But, even as my brothers got married and all my friends seemed to move forward in relationships, I was single. The years went on and I went through college, served in my church, sang whenever I could and to whomever I could and still. . . there was no man in sight that would take the risk of chasing after me. And, so, I did what I realize now was very harmful. . . I buried my dream. Pushing aside any notion that my life would have the fairy-tale ending that I had imagined, I made efforts to write my dream off as childish, selfish, and completely unrealistic. |
About the Author:
Nina Schultz is a 34 year old redhead from South Louisiana now living in Dallas, Texas. Her passion for people, creativity, and her faith has sparked many of the adventures she has found herself on. Whether it is through photography, art, music, or writing- she is always ready to capture the profoundly beautiful moments of life- common or extraordinary.
Nina Schultz is a 34 year old redhead from South Louisiana now living in Dallas, Texas. Her passion for people, creativity, and her faith has sparked many of the adventures she has found herself on. Whether it is through photography, art, music, or writing- she is always ready to capture the profoundly beautiful moments of life- common or extraordinary.
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