Life goes by too quickly. . . I think that is a pretty safe statement to make. When I look back on the last three months of my life, I think the phrase "time flies" is a gross understatement. I feel like, even now, I am still catching my breath from the whirlwind that has been my season of transition. Everything has changed. I found myself getting lost today, sloshing around in the unsteady waters of my own self doubt and frustration. It is easy to forget how far God has brought you whenever you are faced with ever present tidal waves of expectation. It seems I have always put unwarranted and unfair qualifiers on myself- I extend far more grace towards others than I do for myself. And, today I was drowning in it. But, we forget, don't we, of the power of our Almighty and Sovereign God.
My story - and the countless chapters and words therein - stack on top of each other like stones of an altar. It is here that i've come to confess my short comings and plead for God's merciful love to radiate from my life in spite of my broken self. Then, God brought me back. . . to YOU. My friends, my family.
"Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, 'The Lord is my portion, therefore I will wait for him.'” Lamentations 3:21-24
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Patricia Killingsworth
11/13/2015 07:23:15 pm
Miss Nina--I pray for you daily. I am so glad that you are observing your emotions and sharing WITH OTHERS so they feel free to observe situations they are going through with grace. . These questions are definitely pointing in the right direction. From this energy, which you observe,focus your spirit at this very moment of your life on a bigger picture. I urge you not to let this take you over. Your real power has to come from right now. You are so much more than a bald head. If you need to have a break from this visual "mirror image" buy yourself a beautiful new wig to wear sometimes. I had to be reminded about many things after my mastectomy. I very easily could have become a forever cancer patient. It would have been so easy. However, my prayer to God as THANK YOU for finding this cancer and the right physician. I want you to guard against identifying yourself in this way. The real important ways that I became to live were with projecting LOVE, JOY and PEACE. That is all over now. Your real POWER in living will come with your living in the PRECIOUS PRESENT. WHEN YOU SURRENDER TO WHAT IS, and become fully living in the present, this baldness has no power. Your power is in the NOW. I pray that you will leave this the ALTER OF GOD. What a powerful testimony to the Lord that will be. I love you sweet, beautiful, angelic Nina.
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About the Author: Nina Schultz is a 34 year old redhead from South Louisiana now living in Dallas, Texas. Her passion for people, creativity, and her faith has sparked many of the adventures she has found herself on. Whether it is through photography, art, music, or writing- she is always ready to capture the profoundly beautiful moments of life- common or extraordinary. Archives
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